I really wonder why this #30DaysWritingChallenge feels so into “love-thingy”, huh? Perhaps to remind us that love is a universal language and will always exist in this world regardless of its form.
I told you before that I’m in (a middle of trying to) love someone on my First Love post.
I’d like to open all the “doors” in me so that anyone can get to know myself more deeply. But to achieve all these things, I need to accept and love myself first. Sorry if I keep repeating all the “self-love” stuff in my mostly posts. I’ve been having serious problems loving myself since… a long time ago.
After countless counsels/ therapies/ whatever it calls, all the results lead me to accept and love myself first as one of key factors to solve whatever issues inside me. So yea, that’s why I keep pointing out about this self-love.
It’s exhausting to have to explain myself every time, because people will always jump into their own conclusions. I’m in a process to believe that if I love myself more, life takes care of the details because everything else is minor compared to the acceptance of one’s self.
Deep down inside me, I feel like I wanna run away every time I hit my low point. But whichever way I go, I come back to the place where those memories are, and end up blaming myself. It’s totally not good, I freaking know it!
I fell in love many times with other people. Likewise I felt failure repeatedly. Instead of my expectations and demands of others to love me the way I want, I need to show myself how to love me the way I want to.
So yea… I’m in (a middle of trying to) love myself!